Just an Ordinary Girl

I had a MOPS (Moms of Preschoolers) meeting today at Scottsdale Bible Church. A fellow mommy beautifully performed one of my favorite Christmas songs by Amy Grant, “Breath of Heaven.” I remember as a young girl, playing this song over and over again every Christmas on a cassette tape. It gives a different perspective on the Christmas story of a frightened young teenage girl that has been told she is going to give birth to the Savior of the world.

Today we were reminded that Mary was just an ordinary, humble girl that loved God. She was not rich or royalty, nor did she have superpowers. She was just a person that God specifically chose to carry out His plan. Parts of her life story we not glamorous at all, but it had significant meaning to the world.

God chose me to carry one of His children. He orchestrated life in a perfect way so I get to be the mother to Miles. My story is not as grand as Mary’s, but I listen to this song differently now and can relate to Mary as a scared, ordinary girl, wondering what is ahead and if I am the right person for the job. In the song, she says:

“Do you wonder as you watch my face
If a wiser one should have had my place?
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of Your plan
Help me be strong”

Every single day, something new terrifies me about what is to come. And yet I feel at peace knowing that God doesn’t expect me to be extraordinary. He already knew all of my imperfections when He picked me for the job. None of this is about how well I do here on earth by mommy standards. It’s about preparing my sons for eternity and teaching them about Christ. It’s about living a biblical life and loving people. That’s really all I need to do. I’m guessing Mary was a great mom to Jesus, but probably not perfect because she was human. And God chose her just the same.

“Breath of Heaven” Amy Grant

I have traveled many moonless nights
Cold and weary with a babe inside
And I wonder what I've done
Holy Father, You have come
And chosen me now to carry Your Son

I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load I bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now, be with me now

Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness for You are holy
Breath of Heaven

Do you wonder as you watch my face
If a wiser one should have had my place?
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of Your plan
Help me be strong, help me be, help me

Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness for You are holy

Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness for You are holy
Breath of Heaven, Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven